On entering my studio, I often find myself in a low emotional state, where I am not in the mood to make work. This often happens when I have rushed around to get the kids to school, tidied up and done some basic housework. On those mornings I feel worn out before the day of work has started. I am very conscious that I am tired and overwhelmed with life and it all pressures. However, I am also often determined to try to move out of this negative state of mind and get back to being productive.
I have realised that by preparing what I am going to do the night before, as explained in a previous blog post, helps me to know what to do first. But sometimes my energy is so low not even this is enough to get me going.
In order to wake me up and change my energy levels, l find a hot or a cold shower helps to reinvigorate me. I follow this by sitting in an upright position and focusing on controlling my breathing. I think about what I am grateful for, what I appreciate and what makes me feel alive. I appreciate my relationships, I have a lovely family and happy place to live. I am grateful and lucky to have the opportunity to be creative and paint regularly in my studio. The last part of this re-focusing is to go for a short walk to remind myself of my conviction as an artist. A change of location can make a big difference. I feel the sun, wind or the rain on my face. All this takes no more than 30 minutes.
The real trick is to do more of what works and less of what doesn’t. My unconscious mind needs time to sort itself out. I need space to pose open questions concerning my next piece of work. I mull over issues and gently filter out my distracting, conscious thoughts. This process stops the excessive focus on myself and feels like a reset and a physical transformation. It creates a natural high until I can’t wait to get back to work and I haven’t got a moment to lose.