I am happiest when I realise that there is something to investigate, something that doesn’t quite fit. I love the slow development of an idea. The slow convergence of thoughts that often come after a period of incubation. l realise then that there is a problem worth tackling, a problem that is going to become my muse. It is exciting to think that possibly, this concept hasn’t occurred to anyone else. If it has occurred to someone before me, they will likely approached it in a completely different way. I love my work more than what it produces.
I love going deeper, I just follow my hunch and allow it to unfold. When l am relaxed fresh insight and new connections will often present themselves. I enjoy being spontaneous and trying the different things that occur to me in the moment. Taking half formed concepts from other disciplines; taking them back to something simple and basic. Stripping away the layers of nature and making them new.
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In doing so I have come to realise the significance of another type of time, so called idle time. I can’t explain it or the steps involved. But it’s time drawing, time photographing, time playing, time experimenting in my sketchbook and time idlily painting. It isn’t time squandered. It’s development time, where I take one step forward, two sides ways and often one backwards. Time that becomes something.
If I trusted that everything was already correct I wouldn’t discover anything new. So instead, l trust myself to challenge that previous knowledge and develop my ideas and connections. As a result l often find new exciting forms of representation. No wonder I love my work more than what it produces.
Once the work is made however, I worry about having my ideas on show. I am naturally shy and I don’t like being the centre of attention. My creative work is never finished, I can’t wait to get back to my studio to play and exercise my signature strengths. I thrive on the process of discovery and I want to paint something better than I did yesterday. I have come to realise, I love (the development of) my work more than what it produces.